Monday, February 02, 2009
11:12 PM
I am sorry to have to declare this blog
CLOSEDI find myself unable to keep updating this blog. Anyway, you don't know HOW MUCH it sucks to be me at the moment...
Well, closed until further notice anyway... Sorry!
EMO~
Thursday, November 27, 2008
8:54 PM
Hey peeps. Sorry for the dead blog. So now, I shall attempt to revive it!
So, back from 3 days of screaming kids, crazy girls, and bi-curious 6 year-olds. Yup, I'm talking about Shalom Children Camp. Funnily enough though, I sorta miss those lil' monsters. xP The past 3 days has taught me more about the people around me, myself and life in general. Although it has been tiring, it has been a really enriching experience, and I will definitely help out next year. So kids who knew me in camp, behave yourselves yeah?
So it's back to a week of stoning before YF Camp! Can't wait really.
Update again soon, when I don't feel lazy =P
EMO~
Monday, November 10, 2008
9:47 AM
Well, the holidays are officially here. And it’s the worst holidays EVER. Nothing much to blog about… Pfft.
Sorry again. But I have nothing good to say…
EMO~
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
10:21 PM
Hey peeps... Sorry again for blog silence... Alotta stuff going on at the mo'... Exams etc... Freakin' sucks! Hehx.
Haven't really been feeling myself of late... Really. And I just realised. I'm tearing myself up on the inside for a girl I hardly know... And it just sucks. Big time.. So she's popular. She's got looks. And brains. But I hardly know her. This makes me feel stupid... Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid me...
There's just been so much going on in life right now. I'm really getting tired. Time and time again I ask myself, "Why do we live? What is our purpose here on Earth?" and this nagging little voice in my head always tells me the same things, "To f*ck this world up and then die in it..." Mounds of pressure always pour on us from all sides. But I realised, in this rat race that is our lives, we have to keep running, no matter how tired we are... Even when we feel like giving up. We just have to suck it up and carry on. I'm tired too. We're all tired. Life has its many obstacles... "Teenage-hood" is just one obstacle. To give up now, is just... As a "great man" once said, "Don't waste my life..." Hahahahaa... So yeah. I've said my piece. The rest mein Freund, is up to you...
Religion is an enclave I can escape into I guess... Maybe that may sound wrong to many but it's like a sanctuary... But I feel that the Lord will not help me. Not after all that I've done...
Lord, all I can do is to pray that you will grant me self-restraint. And that I can be an instrument for your use... Please help me...
That's all I guess then. 'Til next time...
"Life? It ain't a fairytale... But it ain't hell either..."
EMO~
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
9:48 PM
Hey peoples. Sorry for another long period of silence. It's been, well, busy...
The holidays weren't holidays at all! I mean, school was on everyday. Might as well have struck the "holidays" off the roster...
Exams are around the corner, and my revision plan is being pushed back repeatedly. I don't wanna start tho'... Sheesh! I hate the exams. Whoever likes 'em is
weird... Stupid. Waste of MY LIFE. Life can be put to better use. Like sleeping, jogging, weightlifting, gaming, SOCCER etc. See? So much of life that still needs to be done. And the exams are reducing the amount of time we get to spend on each of 'em...
You know, it's funny how people can see each other everyday and not mutter a word to each other. And when it gets to "talking" through indirect means like MSN and SMSes, it's possible to talk about anything under the sun. I guess growing up in a digital age really affects how people communicate with each other. And it's getting harder and harder to just TALK to people. And I mean
talk! Talking indirectly is SO impersonal, and it's harder to tell if the person "talking" to is genuine. A person can just tell you "Haha" on the web but when on the other end of the line, he/she's probably thinking a whole different thing. Oh well, I guess it will take more effort to keep actual talking alive. If not, the world will probably be in silence...
Hormones are a scourge. They drive me CRAZY. I'm uber confused right now... I agree with my friend though...
"Love is like a war... Easy to start but hard to end"Been feeling sorta emo of late. Don't know why.
And lethargic too. Sleepy......
Anyway, I'll blog till here. Till next time peeps!
"C'est magnifique, mais ce n'est pas la guerre. C'est de la folie (It is magnificent, but it is not war. It is folly"
EMO~
Thursday, July 31, 2008
10:42 PM
The uncertainties of life... Scare me. It's scary to think of what may happen to us the next day. Life. It's wonderful. But scary... It's like in just a second, the entire life that you're familiar with can change so much.
Being a teen now is pretty awesome. But I can NEVER imagine me as an adult... It's scary. Haha. Alotta things scare me. I really can't imagine myself in NS, or with my own kids or when I'm on my deathbed.
Death. What a nice thought. Have any of you ever wondered what lies beyond death? Sure there are teachings of an afterlife, but can anyone really tell you what it feels or looks like? DEATH... It's just a brief second of our lives. In a second you'll be someplace else...
SCARY... Pessimistic.. And now, I'm hopelessly infatuated... With you know who... Some of you may know.
Too tired to blog. Gonna catch some shuteye... At least I blogged as promised eh?
"I'm hopelessly infatuated with you. My little angel. With eyes like deep pools of joy. And a smile that is warmer than a glowing candle yet as brilliant as the stars..."
EMO~
Sunday, July 13, 2008
10:57 PM
Hey guys! Sorry for the LOONNNGGG stretch of "blog-silence" but I haven't had much to blog about.
So yeap. Yesterday was the PSG Family Day. Quite fun... Crapped alot. Erhm... Got my face half burnt by the BBQ(( stupid smoke >=[ )) and listened to two crazy ladies =P singing random songs.... Can't recall much... I have poor STM... =D
Out with my(extended)family today... I don't really feel like I belong... I just feel kind of different. I hardly have anything in common with any of them. I'm always angry with dad, for some reason or another. I hate my(paternal)grandmother too. Ok, maybe I don't HATE her... Dislike, yes... She's so so SO restricting... I'm really going crazy here. And my dad always forces me to spend time with them. I just can't stand it. I really can't. Even when I look at my family portraits. It's always ME who looks out of place. I just can't help but feel that way. And the way my aunts and (paternal)grandmother treat me aren't helping either...
Plus girl troubles have been plaguing my mind again. Girls around me. Friends who are close to me. And my mind always constructs funny scenes of me being with them (nothing dirty guys =.=). So yeap. I AM CONFUSED!!! Well as a great friend of mine once said, "Don't blame me! Blame my testosterones!" xD
Friends too are drifting. I can no longer tell friend from foe... Altho' I doubt I have foes.. =P
Well praise the good Lord I still have a close circle of friends whom I can trust... Or can I?
That's all I can say... Nothing much else... See y'all...
"From: A confused mind, and a screwed up soul..."
EMO~
